cranky mode!

It has been a hell week for me. it is the same old reason. and here i am on saturday night sitting writing my blog with liebestraum on the background.

everybody just make me mad. stupid n not credible lecturers, passive groupmates, filthy housemates. i think my own mother is pissed at me for god knows reason. But for once, it feels good to mock on those uhmm i shud not say... it feels good to step down in group discussion and let those people handle everything. i have alwasy been the thinking... i guess it is time to have faith in people. .. and it is good to not wash my pampers and simply throw it housemate's bin... let them have it.. ive always respected their space.. now let me have my break for my one way respect to their space... and it feels good to say out loud what's in your heart. the hell with other people's feeling... if it's lame.. it is lame...then be it...

But somehow i still end up cranky moody lose hope. all those actions above does not help what i feel inside. the real feeling that im not even sure wat it is... any hooooooo i wanna play uno.. hahahahah

its been a while..

ahahaahahha gilaa udah lama bgt ga nulis blog... malah ingetnya ive deleted the account.. dasar bodoh... kalo gw ga kangen ma henny and all of a sudden baca blog dia.. i never knew that this account still exists..

nothing much lately except nilai2 gw yg terjun bebas with the speed of gravity... dasar tuh nenek gombel... rese bgt nilainya... still waiting for one more assignment to be graded.. then only i can start my humongous ass buat naikin nilai... stressed up with assignments.. yet as usual do nothing about it.. i cant be bothered buat cerita ke haris... palingan kalo ga di ketawain, ga di dengerin, mungkin di marahin.... cerita nya ke blog aja...

im starting BBG today!!! ga tau deh bisa ato ga... i need to lose weight... gw udah rock bottom banget... luckily... jerawat gw udah ilang.. kalo ga gw bisa2 udah depress kali...

im gonna do my assgmnt.. gonna write something later... or maybe tomorrow.. watever....

Every single cent counts...

Fcuk im broke!!

yeapp..not enough money to even pay mom back or just to reload the phone.. i can't just take out from my account.. it's just misuing... the amount in my account are not allocated for these expenses...

sheet fcuk!! i didn even sell anything this month.. not even getting a form signed.. i SUX so bad in selling.. maybe i should've just taken accounting.... im not that strong or persistent or anything in marketing.. i just cant

i really need to pay her back. i cant just walk away like that. i am not going to let myself to be thought of misusing that stupid little card!! idiot.. why did i think they'l pay me back? they will not seriously.. i meant at least not with cash..why was i thingking????? my situation right now does not permit me to be buddies with them.. the one that let themselves to pay 50thou rups just for glasses of lemon tea.. they would laugh at me when i go up to them.. 'hey u haven;t paid ur bill to me'.. which the amount for them would be so tiny... but it meant a LOT to me.. real lot.. it can pay my phone bills and actually i just want the cash to pay my mom back.. that's all.. that card belongs to her.. i just don't want them to pay food for me as a pay back for the bills.. that would be wrong.. but how am i going to tell them... im scared..

this whole broke (in general) thing and working as an insurance agent has saved me from what KTJ has wrongly taught me... hehe
life is more than just get As all over ur papers, beg mommy for allowance, lil bit of party here and there...
it's how to apply those As in life..appreciate the value of every cents u earned with INVESTING it correctly, and have the fun that you deserves ONLY if u manage to achieve the previous two..
work has taught me to be careful just with a 100,000 rupiah... it can change LOTSA thing..

love

kenapa musti fail emailnya...

Helloowwww... omg today i went to the gym after 3weeks not going at all... SO SO TIRING and i lost my breath... astaghfirullah... anywayss



im waiting for my sweetheart bubu to call.. he said hes going to but i dunno if he's still awake...i mean he practically lives like an owl this days..wake up at 12, lunch, study, study study, DOTA!!!, i hate dotaa....sleep at 4 or 6 am... sigh... he's ruining his liver im telling you.. but his head or brain if he has any is as hard as a diamond... just never listen...



GOOD NEWSS!!!! CUCA PASSES ALL OF HIS EXAM... i am so proud of him.. happy deh gw..really. HE can pass business law on first attempt!! woohooo... cheers for cuca... caaa we're so ke ranch market this sunday... celebrateee celebrate!!! 2down... 3 more to go cuca!!! jangan lupa consumer behaviour harus buat casebook sendiri.. ok!

I GOT A SINGLE ROOMMMMin my condo!!! yesssss full privacy people!!! im so happyyyy... so luckkyyy.y..but damn expensive... hehe just hope i dun get the room in between a toilet... that would be a problem...

i said on my last post that hopefully i would be writing the next post on my macbook.. well its my mum's notebook.. hahahaha this weekend man!!! daddy has been too busy.. huhuhu mudah2an harganya blom naek.. di tempat laen naek semua..mo matilaah

it's 10 days to 23 of June.. i feel anxious waiting for my student pass.. bodohhhhh

sternweekme

huahahahaha.. it feels good to be back.. i guess writing has been such an excellent escape for me from this crazy world ...which makes me think why i gave up doing it for the last 1 year ... i really should blame monash and stupid traffic that has caused the lack of time for me to sit nicely infront of this screen pouring my heart and soul to this blog.. or maybe this last 1 year i have been brave enough not to escape from my world.. apparently after 1 year trying to be the tough, super girl trying to face it without complains.. i proudly say that

I AM JUST A COWARD LITTLE GIRL WHO SOMETIMES CANT HELP HERSELF WHEN SHE IS BEING PUSHED AROUND IN THE CROWD I CANT HELP MYSELF COMPLAINING

there.. i said it.. i am not feeling better.. that statement on caps lock and bold n red colour is describing me perfectly.. but I, on the other hand, dun like it.. i want to change it.. but im so lazy..hehehe,,, its hard OKAY?? it IS...

so here i am writing this accompanied by my pastel kentang SUKSES LOH.. pearl jam's last kiss ahh jadi pengen hot chocolate.. gw gila sumpahh

it is really hard to explain the state of myself these days. it seems that i have not been acting myself. i dont think and live to the standard that i used to.. i mean im not as efficient, smart, fast, as before... its just goblokk n blaaah... This has a great effects on me not only that all of the important things has not been running smoothly, but my parents are PISSED at me.. they do not really say it. i think they do..

i need my boyfriend here... (YESS I DO MISS HIM PEOPLE).. i need all my friends here.. i have no money as well.. work has been shitty... STUPID BBM...

anyway...i gtg now... OOOO next time im blogging... hopefully i'l be typing with my MACBOOK!!!!! YEAAAYYYYYYY... i so cant wait..

lotsa love to the world..mmuuaxxx