shanazsitta

THE NEW ERA

2010-03-10T06:01:00.000-08:00

After so many months giving up on this diet thing. (Actually giving up my life). I started to want to try again to lose my weight... I'm still stuck at 66 apparently.. AAHAHAHAHAHA i suck

I'm still on my milk diet thing but things have started to change a little bit since 2 days ago.. no more tidsy bitsy bite... well i did a bit to day... 2 bits of martabak and 1 bite of beef floss... it's not THAT bad right... hopefully by the end of this week i can manage some exercise.. EVERYTIME yes that's right EVERYTIME i said i'm going swimming... it rained!!! bloody hell it's like there is something in the universe that does not want me to lose weight...

maybe better luck in the weekend cuz i have the whole day to swim.. hehehe apparently it rained every afternoon in sunway.. goals of the week is 65 kg after eat and 64 kg before eat.. hohoho 63.5kg wud be great... hehehe it's been sometimes since my weight ever touch below 65kg... more than half a year i guess... uuggghhhh i really need to get my life back...

ooo by the way.. im joining the yoga club!!! ooo yeaa oo yeaaa i hope i have the time... but i think it's time that i go out there and do more rather than staying in my comfort zone.. i have to see more people.. join the club.. and EXERCISE!!! hohoho it's time for me to get over the fear of not enough time to do my work... HELLOOOOO girl u cant avoid time management forEVERRRRR...

WISH ME LUCK TROOPS!! hopefully i can fix my weight below 65kg forever....

tchaaaaa!!

hopeless

2009-10-06T08:06:00.000-07:00

i feel verrrrryyy hopeless. it's so annoying when u've been trying so hard but u don't get the expected result... ARRGGHHHH

I feel GREEEATTTTT

2009-10-01T18:33:00.000-07:00

Ey it's true that exercise makes you feel great about yourself. Although my exercise is only walking up and down the stairs for 5 minutes but seriously it's still exercise... i mean Have you guys EVER try it??? 5 minutes yo.... anywaayyy my face looks fresher and i feel good

hihi the diet has only been on for 3 days but i already feel soo great. I feel that I can achieve something and I did!!!!!! I lost 1 kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yahoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo I am not sure whether this 1 kg is stable or not... because I have not done much exercise... I only did it once.. that walking up n down the stairs and some inverted push-ups.. u noe that push ups.. the one like a normal push ups but u use the wall as the floor in normal push ups.. its much easier but i felt some muscle contract!!!!!! and its good for your pectoral muscle.. for breast firming!!!! hihihihihihihihihih

anywaaayyy yesterday i was such a naughty naughty person.... but still controlled naughty though... I did took a bite of crab oyster sauce, one piece of meat for dinner... and extra curry puff for my snacks... hahahahah n no exercise... ARRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH come on nanaaaaaaaaaa

;p

_shanazsitta 68kg_

The new beginning

2009-09-29T06:44:00.000-07:00

setelah sekian lama tidak pernah menulis blog. akhirnya saya memutuskan untuk memulai lagi.. setelah berputar2 kesana kemari saya memutuskan kalau blogspot.com itu blog yang paling user friendly.. im not old or gaptek or anything or too busy to learn but i find other blogs itu susaaaaah banget...

Anyway, the reason that leads to a decision for me to start writing this blog again is that I feel that I am on the very bottom end of my life and need to sort things out, trying to be a better person and taking care of myself more. ALSOOOO, I am on a diet and I want to keep a record for it. I am not sure if it is going to be any help for others but this for sure will help me because I can see how well I progress.. hehehe

So today I went to Pondok Indah Mall after my Mom coaxed me to do so. I went to this diet nutritionist counter for a consultation of the diet program that they have. unfortanately, the consultant could not even distinguished between 1300 cal diet and 1700 cal diet.. I was like "what the hell.." Seriously It is very DANGEROUS. What if I did not understand about this calories stuff.. luckily i understand... A nutrionist once told my mother n me that since I am not 21, 1300 cal is not recommended.. So I ask for the 1700 cal diet.. U guys would not believed what the consultant said and I am going to quote now "Well, since you are not 19 yet (she said this after I made it clear that I am still growing) you can't follow the 1700 cal diet.. It has to be 1300 cal" GYAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA seriously.. where is consumers right in this country???

OHH!! earlier I said about sort things out right? So I am going to talk about my dreams in life first. This is to ensure that I have motivation to live and to be a better person in this world.

My dreams are (sorted by shortest term to longest term):

1. To graduate with minimal Distinction average, adequate extra curricular record, and qualified for scholarship in Honours degree (which now i missed by 0.21 points GO GIRL!!)

2. To weigh 50 kg on graduation photos

3. To work for Ogilvy as their PR project manager and beyoooonnnndddd

4. To get accepted in UNSW or UQ master degree program

5. To Own a luxurious 2 bedroom apartment with a walk-in closet with one section full of chanel bag from the floor up to the ceiling

6. To build a non-profit foundation dedicated to all working mothers (details later hahaahahaha)

They say to write your dreams will help you a lot to achieve them (amiiin). So.. in order to achieve those things I have to have my confidence back and in order for that to happen, I have to lose weight which I am going to achieve with this diet starting from todayyyy...

anyhowww i follow this weight reduction program that order me to only drink this special milk, cookies, fruit, normal lunch, n veggies n that milk for dinner... at first that did not sound really hard.. except 1 hour before my afternoon snacks is due.. hmmmm that one stick of satay was goood and some licks of the peanut sauce.. daaayymmmnn...

So today I broke my diet with One bite of kastengels, one stick of satay, licks of peanut sauce, n one bite of ribs soup. I swear by tomorrow at least one of these things will go.

Oh! my goal for this week by the way areeee

1. Lose 1 kg.. (according to the diet, this should happen if i exercise)

2. Do the pectoral exercise almost everyday (which until this minute I HAVE NOT DONEEEE.. I think no pectoral exercise today heheheheheheehhee)

3. Exercise at least once hohohohoh

Until we meet agaaaaiiinnn

_shanazsitta 69kg_

cranky mode!

2009-05-16T05:35:00.000-07:00

It has been a hell week for me. it is the same old reason. and here i am on saturday night sitting writing my blog with liebestraum on the background.

everybody just make me mad. stupid n not credible lecturers, passive groupmates, filthy housemates. i think my own mother is pissed at me for god knows reason. But for once, it feels good to mock on those uhmm i shud not say... it feels good to step down in group discussion and let those people handle everything. i have alwasy been the thinking... i guess it is time to have faith in people. .. and it is good to not wash my pampers and simply throw it housemate's bin... let them have it.. ive always respected their space.. now let me have my break for my one way respect to their space... and it feels good to say out loud what's in your heart. the hell with other people's feeling... if it's lame.. it is lame...then be it...

But somehow i still end up cranky moody lose hope. all those actions above does not help what i feel inside. the real feeling that im not even sure wat it is... any hooooooo i wanna play uno.. hahahahah

its been a while..

2009-04-26T06:04:00.000-07:00

ahahaahahha gilaa udah lama bgt ga nulis blog... malah ingetnya ive deleted the account.. dasar bodoh... kalo gw ga kangen ma henny and all of a sudden baca blog dia.. i never knew that this account still exists..

nothing much lately except nilai2 gw yg terjun bebas with the speed of gravity... dasar tuh nenek gombel... rese bgt nilainya... still waiting for one more assignment to be graded.. then only i can start my humongous ass buat naikin nilai... stressed up with assignments.. yet as usual do nothing about it.. i cant be bothered buat cerita ke haris... palingan kalo ga di ketawain, ga di dengerin, mungkin di marahin.... cerita nya ke blog aja...

im starting BBG today!!! ga tau deh bisa ato ga... i need to lose weight... gw udah rock bottom banget... luckily... jerawat gw udah ilang.. kalo ga gw bisa2 udah depress kali...

im gonna do my assgmnt.. gonna write something later... or maybe tomorrow.. watever....

Every single cent counts...

2008-06-14T08:09:00.000-07:00

Fcuk im broke!!

yeapp..not enough money to even pay mom back or just to reload the phone.. i can't just take out from my account.. it's just misuing... the amount in my account are not allocated for these expenses...

sheet fcuk!! i didn even sell anything this month.. not even getting a form signed.. i SUX so bad in selling.. maybe i should've just taken accounting.... im not that strong or persistent or anything in marketing.. i just cant

i really need to pay her back. i cant just walk away like that. i am not going to let myself to be thought of misusing that stupid little card!! idiot.. why did i think they'l pay me back? they will not seriously.. i meant at least not with cash..why was i thingking????? my situation right now does not permit me to be buddies with them.. the one that let themselves to pay 50thou rups just for glasses of lemon tea.. they would laugh at me when i go up to them.. 'hey u haven;t paid ur bill to me'.. which the amount for them would be so tiny... but it meant a LOT to me.. real lot.. it can pay my phone bills and actually i just want the cash to pay my mom back.. that's all.. that card belongs to her.. i just don't want them to pay food for me as a pay back for the bills.. that would be wrong.. but how am i going to tell them... im scared..

this whole broke (in general) thing and working as an insurance agent has saved me from what KTJ has wrongly taught me... hehe
life is more than just get As all over ur papers, beg mommy for allowance, lil bit of party here and there...
it's how to apply those As in life..appreciate the value of every cents u earned with INVESTING it correctly, and have the fun that you deserves ONLY if u manage to achieve the previous two..
work has taught me to be careful just with a 100,000 rupiah... it can change LOTSA thing..

love

kenapa musti fail emailnya...

2008-06-13T05:07:00.000-07:00

Helloowwww... omg today i went to the gym after 3weeks not going at all... SO SO TIRING and i lost my breath... astaghfirullah... anywayss

im waiting for my sweetheart bubu to call.. he said hes going to but i dunno if he's still awake...i mean he practically lives like an owl this days..wake up at 12, lunch, study, study study, DOTA!!!, i hate dotaa....sleep at 4 or 6 am... sigh... he's ruining his liver im telling you.. but his head or brain if he has any is as hard as a diamond... just never listen...

GOOD NEWSS!!!! CUCA PASSES ALL OF HIS EXAM... i am so proud of him.. happy deh gw..really. HE can pass business law on first attempt!! woohooo... cheers for cuca... caaa we're so ke ranch market this sunday... celebrateee celebrate!!! 2down... 3 more to go cuca!!! jangan lupa consumer behaviour harus buat casebook sendiri.. ok!

I GOT A SINGLE ROOMMMMin my condo!!! yesssss full privacy people!!! im so happyyyy... so luckkyyy.y..but damn expensive... hehe just hope i dun get the room in between a toilet... that would be a problem...

i said on my last post that hopefully i would be writing the next post on my macbook.. well its my mum's notebook.. hahahaha this weekend man!!! daddy has been too busy.. huhuhu mudah2an harganya blom naek.. di tempat laen naek semua..mo matilaah

it's 10 days to 23 of June.. i feel anxious waiting for my student pass.. bodohhhhh

sternweekme

2008-06-12T01:11:00.000-07:00

huahahahaha.. it feels good to be back.. i guess writing has been such an excellent escape for me from this crazy world ...which makes me think why i gave up doing it for the last 1 year ... i really should blame monash and stupid traffic that has caused the lack of time for me to sit nicely infront of this screen pouring my heart and soul to this blog.. or maybe this last 1 year i have been brave enough not to escape from my world.. apparently after 1 year trying to be the tough, super girl trying to face it without complains.. i proudly say that

I AM JUST A COWARD LITTLE GIRL WHO SOMETIMES CANT HELP HERSELF WHEN SHE IS BEING PUSHED AROUND IN THE CROWD I CANT HELP MYSELF COMPLAINING

there.. i said it.. i am not feeling better.. that statement on caps lock and bold n red colour is describing me perfectly.. but I, on the other hand, dun like it.. i want to change it.. but im so lazy..hehehe,,, its hard OKAY?? it IS...

so here i am writing this accompanied by my pastel kentang SUKSES LOH.. pearl jam's last kiss ahh jadi pengen hot chocolate.. gw gila sumpahh

it is really hard to explain the state of myself these days. it seems that i have not been acting myself. i dont think and live to the standard that i used to.. i mean im not as efficient, smart, fast, as before... its just goblokk n blaaah... This has a great effects on me not only that all of the important things has not been running smoothly, but my parents are PISSED at me.. they do not really say it. i think they do..

i need my boyfriend here... (YESS I DO MISS HIM PEOPLE).. i need all my friends here.. i have no money as well.. work has been shitty... STUPID BBM...

anyway...i gtg now... OOOO next time im blogging... hopefully i'l be typing with my MACBOOK!!!!! YEAAAYYYYYYY... i so cant wait..

lotsa love to the world..mmuuaxxx