hopeless

i feel verrrrryyy hopeless. it's so annoying when u've been trying so hard but u don't get the expected result... ARRGGHHHH

I feel GREEEATTTTT

Ey it's true that exercise makes you feel great about yourself. Although my exercise is only walking up and down the stairs for 5 minutes but seriously it's still exercise... i mean Have you guys EVER try it??? 5 minutes yo.... anywaayyy my face looks fresher and i feel good

hihi the diet has only been on for 3 days but i already feel soo great. I feel that I can achieve something and I did!!!!!! I lost 1 kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yahoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo I am not sure whether this 1 kg is stable or not... because I have not done much exercise... I only did it once.. that walking up n down the stairs and some inverted push-ups.. u noe that push ups.. the one like a normal push ups but u use the wall as the floor in normal push ups.. its much easier but i felt some muscle contract!!!!!! and its good for your pectoral muscle.. for breast firming!!!! hihihihihihihihihih

anywaaayyy yesterday i was such a naughty naughty person.... but still controlled naughty though... I did took a bite of crab oyster sauce, one piece of meat for dinner... and extra curry puff for my snacks... hahahahah n no exercise... ARRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH come on nanaaaaaaaaaa

;p

_shanazsitta 68kg_

The new beginning

setelah sekian lama tidak pernah menulis blog. akhirnya saya memutuskan untuk memulai lagi.. setelah berputar2 kesana kemari saya memutuskan kalau blogspot.com itu blog yang paling user friendly.. im not old or gaptek or anything or too busy to learn but i find other blogs itu susaaaaah banget...

Anyway, the reason that leads to a decision for me to start writing this blog again is that I feel that I am on the very bottom end of my life and need to sort things out, trying to be a better person and taking care of myself more. ALSOOOO, I am on a diet and I want to keep a record for it. I am not sure if it is going to be any help for others but this for sure will help me because I can see how well I progress.. hehehe

So today I went to Pondok Indah Mall after my Mom coaxed me to do so. I went to this diet nutritionist counter for a consultation of the diet program that they have. unfortanately, the consultant could not even distinguished between 1300 cal diet and 1700 cal diet.. I was like "what the hell.." Seriously It is very DANGEROUS. What if I did not understand about this calories stuff.. luckily i understand... A nutrionist once told my mother n me that since I am not 21, 1300 cal is not recommended.. So I ask for the 1700 cal diet.. U guys would not believed what the consultant said and I am going to quote now "Well, since you are not 19 yet (she said this after I made it clear that I am still growing) you can't follow the 1700 cal diet.. It has to be 1300 cal" GYAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA seriously.. where is consumers right in this country???


OHH!! earlier I said about sort things out right? So I am going to talk about my dreams in life first. This is to ensure that I have motivation to live and to be a better person in this world.

My dreams are (sorted by shortest term to longest term):

1. To graduate with minimal Distinction average, adequate extra curricular record, and qualified for scholarship in Honours degree (which now i missed by 0.21 points GO GIRL!!)

2. To weigh 50 kg on graduation photos

3. To work for Ogilvy as their PR project manager and beyoooonnnndddd

4. To get accepted in UNSW or UQ master degree program

5. To Own a luxurious 2 bedroom apartment with a walk-in closet with one section full of chanel bag from the floor up to the ceiling

6. To build a non-profit foundation dedicated to all working mothers (details later hahaahahaha)

They say to write your dreams will help you a lot to achieve them (amiiin). So.. in order to achieve those things I have to have my confidence back and in order for that to happen, I have to lose weight which I am going to achieve with this diet starting from todayyyy...

anyhowww i follow this weight reduction program that order me to only drink this special milk, cookies, fruit, normal lunch, n veggies n that milk for dinner... at first that did not sound really hard.. except 1 hour before my afternoon snacks is due.. hmmmm that one stick of satay was goood and some licks of the peanut sauce.. daaayymmmnn...

So today I broke my diet with One bite of kastengels, one stick of satay, licks of peanut sauce, n one bite of ribs soup. I swear by tomorrow at least one of these things will go.

Oh! my goal for this week by the way areeee

1. Lose 1 kg.. (according to the diet, this should happen if i exercise)

2. Do the pectoral exercise almost everyday (which until this minute I HAVE NOT DONEEEE.. I think no pectoral exercise today heheheheheheehhee)

3. Exercise at least once hohohohoh

Until we meet agaaaaiiinnn

_shanazsitta 69kg_

cranky mode!

It has been a hell week for me. it is the same old reason. and here i am on saturday night sitting writing my blog with liebestraum on the background.

everybody just make me mad. stupid n not credible lecturers, passive groupmates, filthy housemates. i think my own mother is pissed at me for god knows reason. But for once, it feels good to mock on those uhmm i shud not say... it feels good to step down in group discussion and let those people handle everything. i have alwasy been the thinking... i guess it is time to have faith in people. .. and it is good to not wash my pampers and simply throw it housemate's bin... let them have it.. ive always respected their space.. now let me have my break for my one way respect to their space... and it feels good to say out loud what's in your heart. the hell with other people's feeling... if it's lame.. it is lame...then be it...

But somehow i still end up cranky moody lose hope. all those actions above does not help what i feel inside. the real feeling that im not even sure wat it is... any hooooooo i wanna play uno.. hahahahah

its been a while..

ahahaahahha gilaa udah lama bgt ga nulis blog... malah ingetnya ive deleted the account.. dasar bodoh... kalo gw ga kangen ma henny and all of a sudden baca blog dia.. i never knew that this account still exists..

nothing much lately except nilai2 gw yg terjun bebas with the speed of gravity... dasar tuh nenek gombel... rese bgt nilainya... still waiting for one more assignment to be graded.. then only i can start my humongous ass buat naikin nilai... stressed up with assignments.. yet as usual do nothing about it.. i cant be bothered buat cerita ke haris... palingan kalo ga di ketawain, ga di dengerin, mungkin di marahin.... cerita nya ke blog aja...

im starting BBG today!!! ga tau deh bisa ato ga... i need to lose weight... gw udah rock bottom banget... luckily... jerawat gw udah ilang.. kalo ga gw bisa2 udah depress kali...

im gonna do my assgmnt.. gonna write something later... or maybe tomorrow.. watever....